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i need a vacation..

2009-11-21T05:19:00.000-08:00

my life is so flat nowadays. i need a refreshment. i need a vacation.

venezuela maybe? oh...how im craving to go to this place.. *sigh*

hel-o !!

2009-11-21T04:26:00.000-08:00

after a million month i haven't touch this blog..

now im back..

actually i want to write a million story..

tp ya g mungkin donk yaah..bisa jd berapa page coba yah..

sebenernya ini lbh ke ngga ada kerjaan nya gw sih..

and also i have to learn how to be a good writter since my major is in communication,

and i feel so bad in writing of anything.

(and i write "and" a lot!)

maap, masi canggung..uda lama ngga nulis *pembelaan*

so here i am, start all over again with blogs.

erm..what to tell yeah?

first, now im 20 already..and what is the different?

a LOT!

bout life for example..

ngga banyak yang berubah sebenernya,cuman lebih ke proses pendewasaan aja.

dalem ngadepin orang-orang, ngadepin masalah hidup (caaah!)

gw makin dtuntut untuk lbh banyak mengerti aja.

ngilangin sifat-sifat buruk gw seperti : pelupa, cuek, jorok, panikan, clueless, and be more inisiatif.

dan jg gimana gw ngadepin orang2 yg berbeda. gw dtuntut untuk bisa lebih wise dbanding sebelum nya.

Ternyata..angka 20 tuh lebih tough dari yg gw bayangin yah.

especially taun 2009 ini, buat gw adalah taun yang paling "seru" mnurut gw,

seru dalam artian, banyak dilema-dilema yg bisa jadi pelajaran buat gw.

banyak hal di taun ini yg bisa gw ambil untuk jadi pelajaran hidup gw.

yaa..g bisa gw crtain smwa sih disini, in my other post kali yah. bisa pjg bgt klo gw tulis dsini smwa. hehe

at the end, gw harap..abis ini, i can write more than this.

this is the starter.

still working on my writing. heuhe

ill see u in my next post.

cheers!

my colour checking result is: a PURPLE MONKEY?!?

2009-02-01T12:40:00.000-08:00

nidianti
11/08/1989

You are Purple Monkey who is a straight forward, cheerful and honest person.

You are not very emotional, but work hard and have been smart enough to do errands around home from early ages.

You are clever with your hands too.

You give an impression of being unpretentious, and you are rather short tempered who would carry out everything by yourself.

You set your goal too high, and sometimes experience frustrations in trying to achieve it.

You like to take care of people and are kind and generous person.

You can not walk pass someone who is in trouble.

You take great care of your family and those who are working under you, and your attitude may be seen as too muc interference.

You will not be influenced by emotions, and you can make rational and modern decisions.

Your career will not be affected.

You tend to be rather cautious, and sometimes show unnecessary competitiveness.

This may cause friction in your personal relationship.

If you carry things actively on your own, you may suffer hardships.

You should lay back and let the time resolve things.

Your weakness lies in lack of planning.

You can show perseverance, so you should forecast the future before putting into action.

After getting married, you will carryout housework perfectly, and will be a good wife and a mother.You can make sound decisions.

got it from "http://world.doubutsu-uranai.com".

hmm..that's me..is it?? u answer it.

late night movies syndrom..

2009-02-01T12:18:00.000-08:00

its 4:19 in the morning.
and i just finished watching my movies.
its "Lost In Love", film yg baru aja gw tonton..
dan (again..) its impact me, okey..maybe a lot..
heu. biasa kan gw..
sangat cepat sekali terlarut dlm sebuah drama film.
apa lagi ini film bner-bner "such a teenager's drama movies".
cowok cuek, yg punya pacar seorang cewek berpikiran childish,
yg sangat berharap banyak dr cowok nya.. (hmm..sounds familliar?)
hmm..wat can i say..
whatever it is..yg pasti buat gw,this film, its not like another type of an indonesian's movies.
yg isi nya hal-hal basi to the max!
jadi,(oke gw sedang melakukan pembelaan dsini..) wajar klo gw terbawa esmosii ama film ini.
setiaden.com emg paling okee dahh! hehe :)
eum, the other thing is..
hubungan gw ama yudha, amazingly malah makin membaik.
makin manis,
dan makin (seperti tokoh adit d film td, zzz -__-) berusaha untuk jadi seperti apa yg gw mau.
pertanda? nothing. so far..masi blm ada niat untuk ksitu gw.
hm. dan..f*d**
he looks more gorgeous for me..arrghh
kenapa musti anak gawuull ABG itu sii..heu. lupakan.
hmhh..so, got to sleep now. bye!

weird thing happens today..

2009-01-31T10:44:00.000-08:00

someone has confess his long long time ago's feeling..
dan kenapa aneh buat gw krn, he's the one of my ex's buddies and he's my BF chairmate when i was in highschool.
hm..cmn klo d pikir2 sii, g aneh jg sii.
i mean, its a normal feeling that will be appear when u're to closed with someone (dmn dsini mksd gw adalah dengan yg lawan jenis yaa :P) and this is the most "sinetron" parts for me.. dimana di buktikan nya bahwa rasa benci itu tipis bgt ama rasa sayang.
hahaaaaayyyy!! najis ga siihhh....
krn dulu, gw ama dia ituu seriiing bgt berantem..
trs jg dia itu duduk nya d dpn gw,
hm..makin sering lah itu berinteraksi ama dia.
dan ternyata..dia memendam rasaa...
haha. oke..blog gw hr ini rada sedikit lebay seperti nya pemilihan bahasa nya. heu -___-
cmn yah..krn dia jg tau, gw pacar sahabat nya..yah he can do nothing..
jadi yasudaahh..dsimpen ampe skrg dia confess ama gw.
heuheu.
oke, its weird enough for me, soal nya gw g kebayang aja bakal dia yg ngmng kyk gtu ke gw..
yasuw. ud pagi. hindari tdur pagi, krn sedang proses penggendutan...
ciaoo!

still ...

2009-01-29T02:39:00.000-08:00

will it be forever ..
even with the different situation in each day and time..

3rd april 05 - forever ( i wish ) ..

then it comes the time ..

2009-01-29T02:23:00.000-08:00

ga kebayang bakal begini rasanya..
i know, it will comes the time, when we have to pulled off each other..
cuman, masi ga kebayang ama gw, bakal bgini rasanya..
and the truth is, it really hurt.
its different when i make my decision to end up this relationship.
i thought it wont be really hard, coz i made this.
i want this.
but i cant pretend that i feel so hurt when i realize, that he started to let me be his past.
coz, this past few days..dia selalu nunjukin klo, i can be without you.
g secara gamblang, but i can feel it, i think..
and i didnt expect that it will be this hurt...
and yes, maybe i wont hold you any more longer...

back for guuuud..

2009-01-28T09:42:00.000-08:00

back again.
setelah ud lama g ngurus blog.
now im back for guuud..
krn ngeliat dr ud g jelas nya yg mau gw kerjain jg sehari2 nya.
heuuu.
many things has change in my life for now on..
such as..
i was end up my relationship.
and it was happen in the beginning of this year.
yeah..so bad for starting a new year.
cmn yaahh.. buat ngeles..bisa d blg,
taun baru..lembaran hidup baru jg donk. hehe
kenapa? dan sebab nya apa?
its such a long and a complicated story..
kesimpulan nya yah..
ampe ud sejauh ini jg. di antara kita berdua..
masi blm bisa saling ngerti.
i didnt said that we are totally cant understand each other, but..
there was a principall issues between us, yg emg ud g bisa d tolerir lagi.
dan itu ud terjadi lama, numpuk, dan akhir nya sampai ke klimaks nya..
but we settled it with a good way.
dan hubungan kita berdua jg masi sama.
and nothing has changed.
except just for the status.
and looks like from his side, he got his regret so badly.
cuman yaudahlah.
let the past will be the past.
i have to do my own way, neither he is.
okey.
that's it for today,
hope yesterday i'll be blogging agaiiin. heuhe
iye klo kgak males. heuhe.
ciauu! :)

KLIA lines..

2008-12-08T22:06:00.000-08:00

at KLIA now.
waiting for my check-in bag.
masi lama sii emg, cmn..
since i ever missed my flight, skrg d usahakan 3 jam sblm penerbangan..
gw udah d airport. heuhe :D
sitting at the cheapest hot spot place here, *secara gw prefer duduk d tpt yg bisa mnum2 kecil, sambil ada yg d kunyah..hehe* MC'D..
mojok2, buat nyri plug.
heuhe.
while i'm chatt with him.. dia nyuruh gw buat ngecek flight dia *again* untuk ksini.
hh..
like ussual, he make me drop again..
dont know why, i feel like, im starting to sick with all of my sacrifice..
dgn smwa yg selalu kejadian ktika gw mau ktmu ama dia.
dgn smwa pengorbanan yg slalu gw lakuian untuk dia, yg which is..demi menghalau smwa cobaan2 tsb.
im sick for all of those..
its not mean that i sick of him, im just sick to making any sacrifice again..
like ussual..
sacrfice for all, my feeling, my time, money, and everything..
bukan mksd gw untuk perhitungan..
but, i think its more than enough..
dan dia, yg slalu g perna ngbntu dlm situasi sprti ini.
i didnt say tht he's ignored me..
but he just doing nothing, with all of that he said..
he couldn't calm on me..
hh..
ya gtu deh..
capek jg gw berkeluh kesah dsini.
g ngaruh jg..

gtg now!
hv to do my check-in bag!
c yah!
cups2! :)

(still) STUCK!!

2008-12-01T00:33:00.000-08:00

today is still my exam break.
and I'm still here, at my mate's house.
still STUCK.
still *ucktap with all my papers.
got no money.
got nothing to do.
got none to call to (of course la, i also got no a balance in my cellphone).
got none to talk to.(coz my BF still couldn't call me from there.)
ahhhk.
stuck.
stuck.
stuck.
semester break....come quicck.....
youuu..
yes youu..
come quick sayaang.
heu :(

a very long long long distance relationship...

2008-11-29T10:12:00.000-08:00

the more i try the more that i know..
that preserve you in my life..is the one of the most hardest things that i ever made in my life..
but still, i wanna do this, trough this, pass it with you..
coz i see, your mettle beating in my heart..
--me..

For all that you are and all that you do, and for the many ways..
you make my heart keep singing.
-- Leland Thomas

the premier..

2008-11-29T09:38:00.000-08:00

make my own blog.
its not to be a follower for someone.
cmn lbh ke g ada kerjaan gw ajah..heuhe
ngisi2 waktu drpd kerjaan nya bukain fesbuk ama ngliatin perkembangan fs yg makin g jlas..?! x) hehe.

today. nothing special happen.
kcuali kejadian internet gw aja d matiin.
hpffh.
hoya..and tonight, i just saw one of the julia robert's film..
"the STEPMOTHER"..
and i cried like a baby.
haha.
and after that..sudenly, i missed my mom..
heuu..
basi deh..terbawa suasanaaa..hhh...
asem bgt dah pkkny.
mlm minggu. minggu exam. akhir bulan. pacar hura-hura. tengah mlm, sndirian nangis2 dpn tv gara2 film.
hhaaah...apa lagee cobaaa yg kuraaaanngg...